someone who is...

gentleman, cool, sweet voice, and as tall like tae yang..

gay like adam lambert or once upon gay like gerard (muahaha)..

tough one of my friends may fit these characteristics perfectly..

friend is never going to be lover..

this is for sure.. this is for very sure.. this is for hundred percent, no-turning-back, sure..

but some people just don't get this..

am i been choosy?

yes..

the reason is, i used to be a brokenhearted girl for not been careful enough with the only one whom i fell in love..

this took me years(and still trying) to recover and i'm done..

love is just not my thing..

and i might end up with who-ever-caught-my-parents-attention-that-are-keen-to-hook-me-up-with-some-relatives..

but gay like is preferable. especially who can sing well.. 'namja' is just too rough..

so, jo kwons out there! hello,nice to meet you, can you give me your number please?i'll give you a missed call right away~ :P

mari mengomel kerana..

kerana kebosanan sekarang.. sya ingin mengomel... di rumah sekarang adelah sangat sunyi.. ibu dan bapa sudah tidur.. adik di biliknya, dan saya di bilik sendiri.. sungguh bosan... rutin harian adelah fb,twitter,youtube,blogging, kpop.. kesimpulannya onl9 sepanjang masa.. (selepas selesai tugasan mengemas dan membasuh baju.. walopon menyidai baju di kala petang hari..haha.. oke, siyes tak senonoh.. takpe2..)

dah beberape bulan menganggur, tapi kerja tak cari pun lagi secara bersungguh2.. setakat aplikasi2 di internet.. adela register sane sini mengharap ade kampeni yg terpandang resume saya ni.. yg dah di rejek pun bnyak juge.. adekah sebab resume tak brape menarik? banyak kali gakla dah edit.. tapi takpela.. harap2 agensi kerajaan ni, pandangla orang2 cam saya ye.. insya Allah.. esok, berazam tanak tido selepas sahur, dan membuat kerja2 berfaedahla.. tapi tak tahu lagi ape.. oleh itu, kena la tido lagi sejam.. pasal kul 4 dah nak bangun kan.. tapi sebelum tu , kene update dlu game2 kat fb... kang rugi.. haha.. (haih, bile la nak berubah ni.. orang lain dok berkejar2 masa di bulan ramadhan nih.. kite dok ngadap laptop 24/7!!! move on!)

Part 1

single chat on gtalk makes my heart beat a little faster.. just like before.. it does feels good for a moment.. but the pain comes right after.. why is it i wonder? oh! then i realized.. the similarity of both.. they are just dreams.. wake up! wake up! my dear heart.. don't get drunk by dreaming.. sober now and drag me out from this false hope.. now! now! now!!

'uh, wait a little longer.. just give me ten more minutes... i'll promise to wake up before it gets too late' said the heart, mumbling words while half asleep.. 'fine then' agreed the body weakly..

to be continued...