hey, it's you!.. ahh.. ishashiburi dana..

someone from the past added me on fb.. he was the first person who thought me about relationship.. but it was an unknown relationship though.. we were in the same team, playing tennis for school.. he made the first move, and i accepted him, even though i was looking at another senior at that time.. it was strange how we met and worked with the relationship.. calls, meeting in empty classroom on weekend, tennis practices, presents delivery every events (candy with message delivery thingy), kirim2 salam.. that was how we were back then.. it just stopped when he graduated from school and went to university in Australia.. no words about going to anywhere from him though.. and no words about ending the never-even-started-relationship.. currently he had engaged and about to get married.. i almost forgot about him until a second ago.. but thanx to him, i learned how to feel numbed..

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hati ini sedih.. terkilan kerana tak dapat bersama..

hati ini merintih.. kecewa kerana tak berada di sisi..

hati ini menangis.. sebak menahan sengsara..

aku di sini, mengingatimu..

setiap saat, setiap detik, memikirkanmu..

bagaimanakah keadaan mu di sana?

baikkah? sihatkah? selamatkah?

hanya doa dikirim, bergantung pada Yang Kuasa..

agar hidupmu sejahtera selalu..

agar dapat aku jalankan amanah ku di sini..

agar nanti aku kembali, membawa bahagia buatmu..

ibu, ayah.. doakan aku berjaya..

doakan aku tabah..

doakan aku tegar..

aku menghitung hari untuk kembali ke pangkuanmu..

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mencoba tuk fahami, mencari celah hatimu...

bila harus menangis, akukan menangis..

namun air mata ini telah habis..

mencoba tuk rasuki, menyentuh palung jiwamu...

bila harus menghiba, aku kan menghiba..

namun rasa ini , telah sampai dihujung lelahku..

segalanya telahku berikan..

tapi kau tak pernah ada penantian..

mungkin kita harus jalani..

cinta memang cukup sampai di sini..

you leave me breathless..

if you're not the one

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

say it isn't so

Skies are dark it's time for rain
Final call you board the train
Heading for tomorrow
I wave goodbye to yesterdays
Wipe the tears you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow

How can I be smiling like before
When baby, you don't love me anymore

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Ten to five atleast we tried
We're still alive but hope just died
As they close the door behind you
Whistle blows and tons of steel
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
As I wish I never found you

How can I be smiling when you're gone
Will I be strong enough to carry on

Miles and miles to go before I can say,
Before I can lay my love for you to sleep
Oh, darling oh
I got miles and miles to go
Before anyone will ever hear
Me laugh again

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tabahlah wahai hati.. ini dugaan dalam hidupmu..

breaking dawn!!!!!!

request tok pengarah new moon... sile la skip eclipse dan trus je buat muvie 'breaking dawn'... kerana sya tak sabar nak tgk bella menjadi vampire dan tak sabar nak tgk anak mereka yg kiut itu ye... dan semestinya jacob adelah sgt kiut.. tq....

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setiap kali...

aku berharap...

insan itu aku...

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aku mahu berada di sisimu..

maafkan aku mengabaikan mu..

aku doakan agar kau segera sembuh..

kerana aku belum puas hidup denganmu..

kerana kau kesayanganku...

kerana kau cinta hatiku..

,,

telahku pancangkan titik noktah di situ..

sebagaimana kau labuhkan tirai pengakhiranmu..

cukuplah sampai di sini..

ia kembali!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

internet policy violation telah kembali.. dan ia menyebabkan hidup sya kembali suram.. huk3... :'(

wanita dan pasangannya..

wanita..

manis wajahmu, walau rupa tak seindah mana..

lembut langkahmu, sesantun lakumu..

halus suaramu, dijaga dari menutur yang tidak-tidak..

kental hatimu, walau kudratmu tak seberapa..

melimpah sayangmu, buat yang di cinta..

pasangannya..

tenang wajahmu, walau rupa tak sekacak mana..

sopan tingkahmu, membahagiakan yang disisimu..

tutur bicara, penuh dijaga..

setia hatimu, buat dia yang satu..

lembut hatimu, melengkap kasih pujaan..

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tanak balik utp............ nak balik rumah.................

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bak air mengalir deras

bak angin menderu pantas

bak awan berarak bebas

darah mengalir terasa hangat

jantung berdegup terasa pantas

berjalan tidak terasa berpijak

burung berkicau di awal hari

damaikan hati lagumu riang

kabus melitupi udara pagi

segarkan hati bebaskan resah

pagi yang indah

jangan lah pergi wahai pagiku

petang dan malam menyiksakanku

kasihanilah diriku

pagi, aku memerlukanmu..

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tak sabarnye nak tunggu hari selasa ni~~~!!!!!!!! cepat2 hari selasa!!! nak jumpa mama~~~~!

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bayu menghembus nafas di hela lembut menyegar udara pagi tangan di hulur ke luar jendela menadah nikmat mentari pagi..

demi cinta...

Maaf.. ku telah menyakitimu

Ku telah kecewakanmu

Bahkan ku sia-siakan hidupku

dan kubawa kau seperti diriku

Walau hati ini terus menangis

Menahan kesakitan ini

Tapi ku lakukan semua demi cinta

Akhirnya juga harus ku relakan

Kehilangan cinta sejatiku

Segalanya telah ku berikan

Juga semua kekuranganku

Jika memang ini yang terbaik

Untuk diriku dan dirinya

Kan ku terima semua demi cinta

Jujur, aku tak kuasa, saat terakhir ku genggam tanganmu

Namun yang pasti terjadi, kita mungkin tak bersama lagi

Bila nanti esok hari

Ku temukan dirimu bahagia

Izinkan aku titipkan kisah cinta kita selamanya

* lagu sedap sepanjang masa~ heu.. ;P

batu besar!!~

ada sebiji batu besar sedang menghempap blakang badan sya..
sedang mengfigure out, bagaimana sya dapat meletakkannya kembali ke tanah..
hmm....

hari ni... :'(

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