hey, it's you!.. ahh.. ishashiburi dana..

someone from the past added me on fb.. he was the first person who thought me about relationship.. but it was an unknown relationship though.. we were in the same team, playing tennis for school.. he made the first move, and i accepted him, even though i was looking at another senior at that time.. it was strange how we met and worked with the relationship.. calls, meeting in empty classroom on weekend, tennis practices, presents delivery every events (candy with message delivery thingy), kirim2 salam.. that was how we were back then.. it just stopped when he graduated from school and went to university in Australia.. no words about going to anywhere from him though.. and no words about ending the never-even-started-relationship.. currently he had engaged and about to get married.. i almost forgot about him until a second ago.. but thanx to him, i learned how to feel numbed..

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speechless when im around you..

hopeless when ur not around..

consider me as a failure..

my heart is disfunctional...

*what to expect from someone who can't get over her first love? a total looser!