heh..

hidup sekarang macam tak menentu skit dan bosan.. hari2 buat perkara yang sama berulang2.. bangun pagi, pukul 5 lebih, grak pegi klas pukul 8, ambil kawan, sampai klas pukul 830... start klas, habis klas kadang2 sampai kul 4, hantar kawan balik.. sampai rumah trus online.. menghadap laptop sampai tidur.. pukul 10 da tidur.. haih..................

setelah sekian lama memendam rasa.. kiu3..

sya kembali memblogging nampaknya.. tiba-tiba hari ni terasa nak menulis di blog.. walau ayat tak berapa catik.. tetap mahu meluahkan perasaan yang agak terpendam.. he..

peristiwa hari ini yang menyebabkan sya ingin menulis.. sekadar ingin berkongsi rasa gembira kepada yang mengenali dan mengambil berat akan keadaan sya di kejauhan ini (ade ke?)..

baru sebentar tadi, sya memperkenalkan seseorang kepada ibu sya... seseorang yang sya yakin (setakat ini) dapat membahagiakan sya di hari2 mendatang.. ketika susah, ketika senang, ketika gembira, ketika sedih.. seseorang yang ingin dijadikan teman hidup secara ringkasnya..

setelah berjam2 menyoal dan disoal, ibu memberikan respon yang positif dan sya turut berasa gembira.. dia turut berasa gembira walau pada awalnya, bergegar lutut beb~ haha..

harapan di masa hadapan agar hati ini tidak dipalingkan jika ini pilihan terbaik buat diri sya, dirinya, dan keluarga.. terima kasih.. :)

And when you know, you know..

I know its not your fault, but I’m a locked door
And inside I’ma mess by someone before
And I wish that I, I could find a key
To unlock all the things that you want us to be
Let me open up and start again,
But there’s a safe around my heart
I don’t know how to let you in,
And that’s what keeps us apart
And that’s why I need time.
I said I need you,
I need you to understand, you, you, you (x2)

Call up the locksmith,
Tell him we need him quick
We’ve got a million keys,
None of them seem to fit
While you’re on the phone,
call up the clocksmith,
Cuz I could use some time,
Even the slightest bit
Let me open up and start again,
And break this safe around my heart
I don’t know how to let you in,
And that’s what keeps us apart
And that’s why I need time
I said I need you
I need you to understand, you, you, you (x2)

I’m thinking now’s the time,
Maybe its time to go, if I gave you my heart, be gentle,
I’m tired of laying low, lets give the world a show
And when you know, you know,
And when you know, you know, you know
And when you know, you know, you know, you know
And that’s why I need time
I said I need you,
I need you to understand, you, you, you (x2)
I need you to understand (x4)
I need you (x3)
I need you, you, you
[End]

*Travie Mccoy: Need You

great song, great voice, didn't know he can sing, but the song is superb!!

someone who is...

gentleman, cool, sweet voice, and as tall like tae yang..

gay like adam lambert or once upon gay like gerard (muahaha)..

tough one of my friends may fit these characteristics perfectly..

friend is never going to be lover..

this is for sure.. this is for very sure.. this is for hundred percent, no-turning-back, sure..

but some people just don't get this..

am i been choosy?

yes..

the reason is, i used to be a brokenhearted girl for not been careful enough with the only one whom i fell in love..

this took me years(and still trying) to recover and i'm done..

love is just not my thing..

and i might end up with who-ever-caught-my-parents-attention-that-are-keen-to-hook-me-up-with-some-relatives..

but gay like is preferable. especially who can sing well.. 'namja' is just too rough..

so, jo kwons out there! hello,nice to meet you, can you give me your number please?i'll give you a missed call right away~ :P

hey, it's you!.. ahh.. ishashiburi dana..

someone from the past added me on fb.. he was the first person who thought me about relationship.. but it was an unknown relationship though.. we were in the same team, playing tennis for school.. he made the first move, and i accepted him, even though i was looking at another senior at that time.. it was strange how we met and worked with the relationship.. calls, meeting in empty classroom on weekend, tennis practices, presents delivery every events (candy with message delivery thingy), kirim2 salam.. that was how we were back then.. it just stopped when he graduated from school and went to university in Australia.. no words about going to anywhere from him though.. and no words about ending the never-even-started-relationship.. currently he had engaged and about to get married.. i almost forgot about him until a second ago.. but thanx to him, i learned how to feel numbed..

mari mengomel kerana..

kerana kebosanan sekarang.. sya ingin mengomel... di rumah sekarang adelah sangat sunyi.. ibu dan bapa sudah tidur.. adik di biliknya, dan saya di bilik sendiri.. sungguh bosan... rutin harian adelah fb,twitter,youtube,blogging, kpop.. kesimpulannya onl9 sepanjang masa.. (selepas selesai tugasan mengemas dan membasuh baju.. walopon menyidai baju di kala petang hari..haha.. oke, siyes tak senonoh.. takpe2..)

dah beberape bulan menganggur, tapi kerja tak cari pun lagi secara bersungguh2.. setakat aplikasi2 di internet.. adela register sane sini mengharap ade kampeni yg terpandang resume saya ni.. yg dah di rejek pun bnyak juge.. adekah sebab resume tak brape menarik? banyak kali gakla dah edit.. tapi takpela.. harap2 agensi kerajaan ni, pandangla orang2 cam saya ye.. insya Allah.. esok, berazam tanak tido selepas sahur, dan membuat kerja2 berfaedahla.. tapi tak tahu lagi ape.. oleh itu, kena la tido lagi sejam.. pasal kul 4 dah nak bangun kan.. tapi sebelum tu , kene update dlu game2 kat fb... kang rugi.. haha.. (haih, bile la nak berubah ni.. orang lain dok berkejar2 masa di bulan ramadhan nih.. kite dok ngadap laptop 24/7!!! move on!)

mahu!

tidak seperti tahun2 yang lepas.. tahun ini akan menyambut hari lahir bersama keluarga.. oleh kerana hari lahir saya sehari selepas hari lahir bapa sya, kami akan menyambut hari lahir di kampung semperna sambutan bulan ramadhan dan bersungkai bersama saudara mara di kampung juga.. tetapi sya tidaklah berasa begitu gembira kerana, tidak begitu rapat dengan saudara mara sebelah bapa.. tidak mengapa, sya akan berusaha dengan lebih gigih untuk lebih mengenali mereka! haha..

tahun ini, tiba2 sya teringin akan sebuah gitar.. di tahun2 yang lepas, sya mendapat banyak encik patrik! mereka telah menghuni bilik sya dengan gembiranya... saya pun turut gembira.. terima kasih kepada si pemberi!!! sayang semua~ (pinjam ek diyana..he).. nanti suatu hari akan mengambil gambar mereka dan upload di sini..

berkenaan gitar itu, sya ingin membeli sendiri.. tetapi, niat terbantut akibat tragedi semalam.. huhu.. emak telah memarahi (takdela marah pun, cakap je) saya kerana telah membeli pen 'liquid chalk for black board' sebanyak 4 batang, berharga rm5 setiap satu... katanya.. 'tak fikir2 pun beli banyak2 ni..' .. huuu.. saya bersedih lalu memboikot trus masuk ke bilik (konon merajuk).. rupa2nya... emak tidak perasan pun.. ces, penat jek.. huhu..

di sebabkan itu, saya menyimpan dendam terhadap pembelian gitar itu setelah mendapat kerja dan bergaji tiap bulan.. mari mencari kerja!!!!